So I was sitting here thinking about what to write, SO SO SO much has changed in the last few weeks. It feels as if my life is a whirlwind. But by the grace of "God", all the changes has been changes for the better.
So my mom bought me a car. She already regrets it, but my brother took charge before she could change her mind. My mother, actually, at this moment in time, isn't even speaking to me. But I've already told her that I plan on paying her and my other family members back for what they contributed to paying for the car. It was only $500 so I should have everyone paid back within 2-3 months. If that.
My dad helped me out and was able to get me a job at his work. Which is funny cuz I've been bitching for YEARS that I wanted to work there cuz I have so much call center/phone experience but I wasn't able to since it would have been a "conflict of interest" to work under him or my step-mom. But they brought in a new division, and therefore I was able to get hired since I'm not technically under Deb or my dad. In reality, yeah, I still answer to Deb or my dad, but my actual boss is someone else. Also, since hearing that I've been spending 5+ hours a day on the bus getting Tallan to daycare and to work and from work to pick Tallan up from day care then home, on the bus, my dad gave my brother the money to get my insurance started and get my car fixed faster so I can get some more sleep and my whole day isn't spend revolving around work.
After Josh ended things, I joined that stupid site, Plenty of Fish. I met this really cool guy named Scott. And we really hit it off and went out on a date and I had a really good time. Things seemed to be going well, he said he had fun and wanted to go out again and even kissed me good night. But then he never called. I was pretty pissed off at this. But its life and its whatev. In the midst of all this, I had been trying to re-kindle things with Rob. Who is still being stubborn, but I know that waiting this one out is worth it.
I never should have left Rob. But at the same time, I'm glad I did. I never would have realized how much he really meant to me. I'm glad things didn't work out with Josh or Scott. I feel like something out there wanted me to see the potential in my relationship with Rob. Because I appreciate him more than ever now. I just wish I hadn't hurt him. =( It just sucks cuz leaving him and going thru what I went thru made me realize that I fell in love with him, but me leaving him made him lose his trust in me. It's going to be a long process to fix things and I don't know if things will ever be "normal" or any where close to what they were, all I know is that I want to be with him and I'll ride it out to find out.
I'm glad things are changing in my life. It feels like my life was stuck on pause, and someone finally just pushed play. Change is hard, but sometimes, change is good. At least in this case it is. I'm terrified and excited for what the future has to bring.
-Ashley
I'm really proud {and a little jealous} of how well your life has come together so quickly. When you least expect it, is when things will start to change. I'm so glad you have a job now to keep you occupied, because I don't know how much longer I'm going to be working either. :/ But we'll get through this together. Nothing ever seems to challenging for you and I. =)
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